I’m always on tumblr, just never really post anything, idk why.

anyways, my friends Sarah and her two little girls got back yesterday! I’m so happy for her, she finally gets to see her husband tonight. John has a month left before he has to go to school again for three months, blah. I wish I could go home again this time but I can’t.

Last weekend I spend it at the beach and I got so dark, like I’m already tan as it is, I don’t wanna be super dark lol. My nose even got burnt.

just want to be with them.

I’m not mad at you. I’m hurt and upset for the most part.

I just don’t understand, I thought we were over this whole lying and keeping secrets. They were some stupid lies at that. Your my husband and I can’t even trust you, who am I suppose to trust now? If you knew this was going to hurt me, why did you do it to begin with? Do you not care about me? I feel like you don’t give a shit. You say nothing was going on but why keep it too yourself and lie to me if you had nothing to hide. I always try my hardest to make you happy. What did I do wrong?

I fell like you really weren’t ready for all this…I just wish you would of figure that out 29 months ago.

It’s raining so hard outside right now. This whole week has been ugly, weather wise. John wanted to go see the avenges movie, it starts at 3:30, but he’s sleeping since he had duty last night and I don’t wanna wake him up, he looks so peaceful.

I’m gonna make myself some tea and watch revenge.

What to do today!

I was going to clean the bathrooms, but we don’t have an extra sponge :/ So now i’m just laying on the couch being bored. I would go clean but there’s nothing else to clean lol. John has duty today so that sucks. I hate sleeping alone. He will be home for dinner though, I’m gonna make turkey picadio, some new recipe I found on eatingwell. Hope it turns out good and Mr. Picky-pants likes it, seriously though he’s the pickiest eater. Like he’ll eat anything but at the same time he won’t, idk how to explain it. Part of the reason why I hate cooking for him.

I need some friends who live close to me, in the Hubert area since I don’t have a car an all that bull crap. Anyways, today is such a crappy day outside, it’s all cloudy and sounds like it’s gonna rain soon or is already raining, I wouldn’t know since I haven’t gone outside. I’ll go check in a bit when I go get the mail.

I have a love/hate relationship with Johns motorcycle, lol.

I can only ride on it for a short amount of time, my legs always fall asleep, back starts to hurt and the worst part hands/knuckles hurt from when I’m holding on to him, they bump into the front, I feel silly lol. All that aside it’s fun riding on the back with the wind just blowing on you :)